Andrea Nicole, 23 años, de Puerto Rico. Sigo tratando de hallar mi lugar en el mundo, en busca de libertad y felicidad absoluta.
"No seré perfecta, pero las cosas que hago, las hago con el alma; llevo una sonrisa en mi rostro y mil secretos en el corazón"
8 years ago I met you and no, it wasn’t love at first sight. It was much more that that, I got to know you and talk to you and we just became really good friends who were super goofy with each other. We kinda liked the same music, we connected through music. But thinking back… I was a totally different girl back then, the girl that fell for you, it’s not the same girl I am today. Today I am a strong woman who is independent and likes going out to have fun, I am a woman who is ready to live with no judgement or doubt in her head. Today I am a woman who is taking a year of before I apply for my PhD, why you ask? Because I wanna discover myself and I wanna fall in love with this new me. I have evolved a lot since we met and yes, you helped me with that, you were my fortress, my rock, you held me up while life kicked me to the ground and you were my shoulder to cry on through all my family problems. I will always remember that my love, I just had to let you go… All the years I spent being with you were not enough to keep me there with you, and all the love that I felt wasn’t enough. It’s not your fault and it isn’t mine either, we just grew up. Now its time we stopped holding each other back which is why I made the decision to let you go Eddie. You will always be the love of my life, it just didn’t work out, we wanted different things and the way our families made us took a really big toll on our relationship.
Sadly, what hurts me the most is not losing you,I was prepared for this, I thought about it for a while, analyzed the whole situation before I came to a resolution… what hurts me the most is the fact that I’m empty now, nothing will ever make me feel as happy as you once did. At least not for now… I feel like a cold hearted bitch, I can be with different guys and have sex while not feeling a thing. Which I still don’t know if it’s good or bad. The good part is that we are okay and I haven’t lost you which is what I feared the most to be honest. Once I lose you, I don’t know what I’m gonna do with myself but I won’t blame you, cuz I kinda was a dick to you. Just know that I will always love you, I just couldn’t handle being in a halfway relationship anymore, our love died a long ass time ago. You are my best friend, you will always be the boy I loved the most and we had an amazing relationship while it lasted, I will always love and remember you.
